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Did you miss me?

For those of you who actually follow my blog, you may have noticed that things were a bit quiet after last Monday's post. I actually did get a comment from someone wondering why my regular Friday blog was missing. 

Ok. So the comment was a text message from my mother. Does that count? 

I told you that she reads my blog.

Anyway...I suppose I could offer many excuses about why I didn't write much last week. I did have an additional post out there in the blog-o-sphere. (Thanks to Hey! That's My Hummus for publishing my guest-post.)

I could tell you that I was busy. 
I could tell you that I was tired. 
I was feeling uninspired. (wow. that's almost poetic.)

In truth, it was all of those things. And none of them.

In truth, television was my time-suck this weekend. 

Oh, I did get some things done. I exercised and visited the Ashland Strawberry Faire. Roger and I attended a neighbor's graduation party on Saturday as well as a wine tasting at The Caboose on Friday night. I caught up on some bills and paperwork, did a load of laundry, and cleaned the kitchen...but the thing that sucked me in to the vortex was...Studio 60.


It started Friday night. I was trying to sleep and my monthly bout of insomnia (I swear it happens about every 4-6 weeks) seemed to be rearing its ugly head. I should have been tired but I just wasn't. I wandered to the Netflix queue and found the witty Aaron Sorkin creation waiting to be viewed. Before I finally fell asleep, I had watched the first three episodes.  Before the weekend ended, I had watched all twenty-two. 

Yep. 22 hours of television in one weekend.*
(*Ok...technically...if you realize that they are 45 minute episodes, it was really 16.5 hours of TV. That's better, right?)

I had seen the series before. When it originally aired in 2005, it was part of my personal Must-See lineup.  I've been a Sorkin groupie since West Wing and I totally dig the smart repartee, creative storytelling, and incredible talent that seems to embody every television show (or movie) in which he invests his time. Entertainment Weekly's "showbituary" of Studio 60 encapsulated the show by citing how it "delivered topical jokes that were like New Yorker articles with punchlines tacked on."

Yep, I got sucked in to the vortex of television for one weekend and I have no regrets. 
My Type-A personality is learning to be ok with not running at full throttle 24/7. 
I'm learning how to relax and I'm learning how to let go. I'm learning how to not say "yes" to everything that crosses my path.  I'm finding that I can still accomplish many things and still be ok at the end of a weekend where I haven't accomplished everything. I'm 35 years old and I'm still learning.   

For me, it can be a challenge to learn how to relax. 
It's all part of my endless pursuit of balance. 

How do you look for balance in your life?
 
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